June 9, 2022
It finally happened friends…I got COVID. It’s amazing how the body will force you to slow down in the moments when you push it to its limits.
So here’s the scoop. I recently went on a dreamy getaway to Palm Springs for a dear friend’s wedding allll the way from Hawaii where we’ve been living since Jan 🤙🏽 While there, I also booked time with my FAVE photographer (shout out to my girl Krista Marie Photography!) for exciting projects in the works and guess what. When I got back…your girl was exhauuuuuusted.
But it turns out it was more than exhaustion, it was the big C.
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Dude. That thing was horrible and it took me to a super dark place full of shame, anxiety and general existential dread. Ya know, the usual suspects. I hated every minute of it. But, inside of my sickness, I got super clear on some things my body had known for a while yet my mind had been refusing to accept. And as soon as I was coherent again, I put the wheels in motion to make some big changes:
I quit my writing class. I canceled my contract with my beloved writing teacher. I called my agent to press pause on my current project. I decided to take a hiatus from writing altogether. I gave myself permission to stop forcing something that no longer brought me joy.
Taking it as yet another lesson from the universe to slow down, pay attention to the wisdom of my body, and to remember that what’s important–how I prioritize my time and energy–is up to me.
Say it with me: I listen to my body and honor its needs. 💫
I Have to be Honest
This is a safe space, so I wanted to spill the tea that being sick actually gave me some relief…
I’d been having kinda a hard time in Hawaii TBH, dealing with a bunch of health issues and I just didn’t feel like myself there. On top of not feeling awesome, I’d been SUPER self-critical about it (like, who isn’t happy in paradise?!). But those were my feels and I couldn’t help it.
When I had COVID, though, I felt a sense of relief to just let myself feel the way I did. I felt like crap and that was ok, because I had an excuse. Why is it that we think we need an excuse to feel the way we feel? 🤦🏻♀️
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I’ve been doing my best to make room for ALL of my emotions and accept that life is full of duality. And something tells me I’ll be re-learning that lesson all over again as we embark on the next leg of our nomad adventure! (PS- did I tell you we’ll be spending the summer in Europe?! 🏰 😍)
Just HAD to Share!
You know I LOVE mashups and O.M.G. have you listened to this one yet?? (Who else thinks that little Asian girl is the star of the show? 💖)
Ok, back to resting, honoring my body and ruthlessly prioritizing joy. Hope you can do the same today friend. 💕